Life Update

About 3 weeks ago, I have completely stopped breastfeeding Sven, my second child. And 2 weeks prior to that, I started breastfeeding less (only in the morning and evening). There were some antibiotics that I needed to take that forced me to fully stop breastfeeding.

And now, I'm back to work on my fitness journey. It's much harder to lose weight now compared to my first pregnancy. I remember, 9 months after I gave birth (on my first child), I was almost back to my pre-pregnancy weight. But now, almost 15 months after I gave birth to my second child, I'm still nowhere near my pre-pregnancy weight. But it's okay, I decided not to be so strict to myself.

These are the things I decided to do to slowly get back in shape:

- Intermittent fasting at least 12hours (14hours max)

- I started exercising in the evening

- I am not gonna limit myself by eating less calories, I will continue to eat as much as I want, but will eat a bit healthier. Instead of eating lots of chips, I will switch to eating some fruits/cucumber/singkamas/carrots. It's our go-to healthy snack that our kids love as well.

My body isn't what it used to be when I was still single (and didn't have a baby yet). But now, I have a lifetime to slowly get it back in shape, eat healthy, and be more caring towards myself. My purpose now isn't to become sexy, but to be healthier and fit.

Mental Health

There are really times that depression will hit me out of nowhere. I thought I was okay, and suddenly, I'm so down and emotional and I couldn't control my thoughts. Just few days ago, I felt so anxious about everything and I couldn't focus at work. I decided to go out early at 4PM, and I felt that I wanted to run - I don't really run, I hate it, but at that moment, that's all I wanted to do, just run. So I told my husband and he was very understanding, and allowed me to go without minding the kids. He went with me, together with Brandon, and we hiked to the top-most part of the subdivision, and I did multiple sprints, jogging and mostly walking. It really helped my calm my mind, and eventually I told my husband my worries.